What a hot and sunny morning..Feeling lazy walking to campus..little did I know that the storm is coming to my way......
Finished my last paper for this term this morning. Finally, I thought. I will start my industrial training tomorrow at a local English newspaper as their trainee reporter, kind of excited. Really couldn't wait for tomorrow. Even thought deep down in my heart I'm really fear stepping in the writing desk again. I wish I can do better than last time.
After my exam, I walked alone in the mall without any direction. Don't feel like going to cinema, don't feel like visiting any friends...just keep walking. Really hard to describe the feeling. Doubtful and lost.
Reached home, i did nothing..just turned on my lappy and watched some Hong Kong series which I had watched for thousand times. Browsing my FB, and a familiar name pop up. Like usual, I tried to keyed in his name, hoping to know how he is doing. "In relationship with xxx" this status caught my eye. Suddenly feel like storming outside my room go straight into my heart. -Heartbreaking- I bet he is doing really well over there. Well, shame on me. I couldn't find a reason to keep me going. I'm just doing what I should do for the past one year. I realised I no longer dream to go to any ends.
Life is tough, that's why we are human. I should really start looking forward my life, looking forward how to make my life fills with colours and not just Black-White movie. Starting my reporting life tomorrow should be a brand new start. Even though I know it is not easy to be a journalist [with my quality] but I will try hard to reach what I have been aiming.
"When you've found a reason to walk away, never look back... Just keep walking. It's better to get lost moving on than to get stuck and stranded broken."
