Sunny in the morning, suddenly storm in the evening

What a hot and sunny morning..Feeling lazy walking to campus..little did I know that the storm is coming to my way......

Finished my last paper for this term this morning. Finally, I thought. I will start my industrial training tomorrow at a local English newspaper as their trainee reporter, kind of excited. Really couldn't wait for tomorrow. Even thought deep down in my heart I'm really fear stepping in the writing desk again. I wish I can do better than last time.

After my exam, I walked alone in the mall without any direction. Don't feel like going to cinema, don't feel like visiting any friends...just keep walking. Really hard to describe the feeling. Doubtful and lost.

Reached home, i did nothing..just turned on my lappy and watched some Hong Kong series which I had watched for thousand times. Browsing my FB, and a familiar name pop up. Like usual, I tried to keyed in his name, hoping to know how he is doing. "In relationship with xxx" this status caught my eye. Suddenly feel like storming outside my room go straight into my heart. -Heartbreaking- I bet he is doing really well over there. Well, shame on me. I couldn't find a reason to keep me going. I'm just doing what I should do for the past one year. I realised I no longer dream to go to any ends.

Life is tough, that's why we are human. I should really start looking forward my life, looking forward how to make my life fills with colours and not just Black-White movie. Starting my reporting life tomorrow should be a brand new start. Even though I know it is not easy to be a journalist [with my quality] but I will try hard to reach what I have been aiming.

"When you've found a reason to walk away, never look back... Just keep walking. It's better to get lost moving on than to get stuck and stranded broken."

Media Freedom vs Responsibilities in HELP

Every now and then, media practitioners always mention and argue about the media freedom and rights in Malaysia. Last Wednesday (4^th November), mass communication students from HELP University College were being told about the rationale behind this concept of ideal press freedom , as it applies to Malaysia.

This talk with the title “Media Right vs Media Responsibilities” was organized by the Communication Laws and Ethics students from the Department of Communication in HELP University. It held in their main campus, located in Damansara Heights. The organizing students invited two reputable guest speakers to share their opinions. The first guest speaker is well known lawyer and also a fighter for human rights, Malik Imtiaz Ahmed Sarwar. While the second guest speaker is the Editor-in-Chief of popular online newspaper, Steven Gan to share their views regarding the topic.

The one and a half hours talk began with Malik Imtiaz, who shared about his opinions on the role of media controllers in Malaysia and the laws regulating the media. According to Imtiaz, Malaysia have sufficient laws such as the “Defamation Act” and “Seditious Act” to regulate the media organizations from being off their limit in reporting. Hence, he concluded that there was no need for Malaysian political parties to act as media watch dog in their contents.

“The newspapers are writing for politicians and not the public like you and me,” Imtiaz says. According to him, this is what will happen if the political parties become involved in managing the media organizations.

However, before ending his sharing talk, he also asked the assembled students a few questions. He asked if press freedom is important and is it dangerous to have free press in Malaysia. These questions gave the students a pause before answering.

“I think Malaysians may not be ready for a total freedom of press, but I believe they can learn and move up without any interference from the political parties,” says Yuki Ling, a final year student of Bachelor of Communication in HELP University College.

Then the second speaker Steven Gan took over and moved away from media laws and political parties to discuss the responsibilities and the ethics of journalists. After being in the journalism field for so many years, he shared his experiences and his views on ethics in journalism.

In his sharing, Steven talked about how he had to create a fake identity in order for him to get into a detention camp, where his is doing an investigation on various diseases being reported. According to him, even though faking an identity might not sound ethical, but he believes that he did not hurt anybody in doing so, but that the action might bring a huge and important story to the public.

Through this sharing, students crowd in the hall looked surprise and do not expects that they we hearing an untold stories from an experienced journalist. Steven also told the crowd that he doesn’t believe in publishing dead body in the media, but for current Teoh Beng Hock’s case, he made an exception. Not convinced by his sharing, one of the students thrown him another question asking why Teoh’s body is an exception.

“I published the picture because I believe this is a public interest story,” Steven explained on his extraordinary action.

Even though there were still many unasked queries from the students, but the talk had to ends at the scheduled time it was planned to avoid any inconvenience for the guests and the crowd. From this short session, students from the Department of Communication gained the insight of their future goals and career paths from these two respectful guest speakers.

David Tao ^^

As usual, I’m having my 4-hour break before my next class. Planned to do my assignment which due this coming Friday, but guess what, I spending the 4 hours looking and loading for David Tao’s videos@@

He is such a fantastic celebrity. His songs, voice and characteristics just make me loves him so much during my high school. After all these years, I can’t believe it I did the same thing again today (feel like screaming, like myself joining his concert @@).. someone passed me his live concert songs in Hong Kong, the way he acted during the concert just make me realize that, “oh gosh, I love David!!!” Trust me, I’m not that kind of girl who will crazy over celebrities. Well, David is just different, trust me he is different…the way he brings his music just different compared with other celebrities.

Well, he robbed my heart again ^^ and the poor thing is, well Yuki, you need to stay up late tonight to get your assignment done @@

Facing the same situation again

Walking on the street, turning my head up to the sky, the same sky, I saw the familiar object. The scenario was just like how I used to look like in the past 2 years. Walking alone on the streets, watching the aeroplanes flying above one by one, and same as previous time, I’m still being alone here.

Life is a kind of funny things. Good things happened, and of cause bad things are still around. Standing where you are, looking at the same sky, seeing the same things, yet things around me keep changing. People change, movies in cinema change, music genres change, the only thing that seems remain the same is me, Yuki.

Perhaps, I changed, but not in a positive way. Bad things getting worst, good things turned bad. Someone asked me a question, a question a friend used to ask me before, “What is your purpose of life?” I didn’t answer the way I used to. Feeling just like I’m no longer passion in what I’ve been chasing for, my dream, my purpose of life. This really makes me not in mood.

“They tell me your blue skies fade to gray, they tell me your passion's gone away.”

Where am I supposed to be?

New Year, as usual, people will set new goals, telling themselves that everything bad will be over, and new things/good things will be ahead.. Sad to tell this, but all these are lie..Just like others, I told myself, everything will be good. I started off with new term in University, going to new Church, wearing new clothes, looking for new boyfriend (well, trying to...), everything filled with hopes..but, you see, reality sometimes is kind of cruel. Things just will not be as what you want them to be..

I started my new term in Uni, and received my results for last term..kind of bad one..even though is not much different from what im expecting, but trust me, its hurt...When i failed my own goal, I will keep thinking, "am I in the place where I supposed to be?"... This is kind of negative, but when things are bad, will just make me a negative person..

Maybe I really have no talent to be a journalist/writer...I can't write, and my English is sucks...

All the things here just doesn't seem good to me...