Searching my purpose of life again

My life turned in black and white long ago, I don't know when. I used to think that I have a colourful life with all the part time jobs, my dreams, my life principles, my friends, families, everything in my life...Everything seems to be colourful. I even forgot how my smile used to enlighten other people's life. So pathetic..My life just turned upside down, ruined by my own ego and pride..I seriously need to get back my life in order...

I have my dream job, not many friends as last time, but I do have sincere friends, lovely family...and oh, I need to stand still on my own principles, yeah my principles used to be charming @@'' (well, at least I think so, hehe).

I need to live life fullness..without any regard...and yeah, I need to start searching for my purpose of life now, now, now ...NOW!!!!!

And to start of, I need to face my inner self and so I should loudly say what is in my heart now...." I love David Tao and Gong Yoo so much!!!!!! " hehehehe

I should enjoy being single, right??

Was a bit moody for the past few days. Yesterday, a charming guy just enlightened my day..Funny enough, I was like a little girl giggling around and keeps telling one of my best friend how cute this charming guy is. Suddenly, I just realised, yeah, this is how I should be. I'm a young lady that should enjoy this kind of feeling. I almost forget when was the last time i acted this way. I just could not recalled.

My previous love life is kinda pathetic. I just do not know how to show my love to the one that I loved, and I feel sorry for those who loved me, but they are not the one I'm looking for. I'm just feeling so sorry..

I deserve a choice, don't I? and I should enjoy my single life, don't I?