A Pair of Aeroplane

Ever wonder why God created a pair of eyes, a pair of hand, a pair of leg, a pair of ear and etc? Well, I always think about it. Maybe God don’t want alone, because being alone was a sad feeling. Or maybe God just wanted to tell us that in this world we are not alone. Therefore, sometimes we just can’t do things by our own. We need help sometimes, we need courage and support from others. That’s why things always came in pair.

I always believed in destiny. Yeah, I do. For me, destiny is something that can’t be explained using scientific methodology. It is just something that we could not explain and something that God had prepared them for us. This is what I always believed. However, sometime there are too much of things I thought there were “destiny”, but ended up I doubt about the things that I called “destiny”. Some friends in church or those who are faithful in Christ I met do tell me that I was doubt because I not really pray enough. Or maybe I was not faithful enough. Well, I admitted. Perhaps, I’m greedy. Besides human beings’ understanding, I want God understanding more that I suppose to get. That’s not good.

Back to the aeroplane I mentioned. Well, “A Pair of Aeroplane” appeared yesterday night when I saw two aeroplanes less than 15 minutes. Before begin, just wonder how many people out there will look up to the sky? Or perhaps should ask, how frequent people will look up to the sky to appreciate the creations of God? Well, when I was still very young (of course I was not really old now) I like to looked up to sky at night to see how wonderful the sky with million of stars shinning. After the beauty of sky disappeared with the little boy I admired, seem that I forgot the creation from God.

Well, last year a week before Christmas, if I not mistaken, the little boy came to my house. While waiting for him at the LRT station, suddenly I had call from the sky. Standing in the middle of the overhead bridge, I looked up the sky. I saw an aeroplane. Then, another one in less then 20 minutes. I thought I must be very lucky that night. Things that I called “destiny” happened that night. The little boy who waited for me in the wrong place saw the two aeroplanes as well. Exactly the same things I saw in the sky. I thought that time, that’s must be the guy God prepared for me, but actually he is not. So, who can explain this kind of situation to me?

Whenever, I thought “that’s must be God’s will”, mostly will turned to the opposite as what I had thought. Just wonder why. I prayed for my studies, wanted to pursuit my study in UK, turned up someone offered his help to take me there. This happened when I got my dream job as a journalist. I thought it must be a chances God gave to me, by sending this person to bring me to UK. So, I made a tough decision, planned to resign. When I really in the mood to go UK and after I let go all the worries in local and things I might faced in UK, thing started to changed. The person who promised me to be guardian if I go UK turned up to be disappeared. Just wonder why this happened to me. Again, I started lost. I hate this kind of feeling.

All these incidents make me feel I do not want to trust people, do not want to depend on people and do not feel to communicate with people. I started to feel that I was a weird person. Started to think, why things always came in pair. Started to agree that human being was a weak creature. I am weak. I just wanted a place that would accept me, a place that I feel being appreciated.