Let him go

Anyone out there can define “love” to me? I’ve been asking myself, how deep is my love to him. But my conscious can’t tell me. I started to feel that I’m a loser that do not even know how to love a person. Someone told me, to love someone is to give all you can to the person. Perhaps, I only accept and do not give what I suppose to give.

Again, someone told me, if you love him deep enough you will definitely tell him how you feel. But I didn’t tell him how deep I love him, not because I doubt about my feeling. Just that I don’t want to lose him because I know he only want to be my friend. I don’t want to give him any pressure.

When that day, we exchange the things we promised to each other since long time ago, I knew it clearly that we can’t get together। I decided to him go for so many times in early day, but that night I knew it clearly I really have to let him go. Cant describe how heavy my step to leave him. How I wish that I can hug him and ask him to stay. But I know I have to let him go.

I wish you can find your purpose of living.

To fall in love is hard, to be in love is difficult, to forget is suffering, and to let go is hurting.